Phi-ism

hmmm just found a job in the job centre website page
says post room assistant - wage - £15,000 an hour.
Blimey :D Yeah I'd move to westminster if they gave me 15 thousand an hour
corrrr

was asked today what colour best describes me and of course i said red.
i explained very briefly why (my passions and emotions) and was accused of being like a girl called natalie?
But then the dude who was asking me was a thick shit with no people skills whatsoever.
Natalies idea of red is fun and outgoing and confident and whatever, but thats not MY idea of it.
I cant say it without being poetic, but whats wrong with poems?

Red is three things that are everything to me.

Its the pain of my sorrow which confronts me every day.
Its the band aid. The passion of my love which is deep and limitless. My heart leads.
and its the anger. my hatred of myself, humanity, the past betrayls yknow. :/

Three things and everything. blue doesnt express my sorrow enough. pink doesnt do justice to the ferocity of my passions. green will never express anger to me.

So red it is, and fuck you to anyone who thinks red means confidence. :p yellow is confidence. so shush and keep your very different opinions where they belong - in your fucked up head.

On the course the other day the guy there running it almost threw this jobcentre thing out the window when he saw it said i would do warehouse.
He was like 'you're too good for that! office work it is'
hehe people are so weird. is it because i'm quiet that they think 'ooo she must be smart' hehe

erm.... perhaps god created humans for companions. Perhaps he made loads so they would all be unique. perhaps he sends us here so we can change... (not my belief, just a random perhaps)
well i'm pretty sure theres a god.
but the thing i doubt the most is that he sent us here so we could kiss his godly butt.

I'll respect some religions (i think the flying spagetti monster religion is the best! any religion to do with pasta is ideal and fine with me!)
but in the end, i'll keep my spiritual thoughts to myself. im far too liberal for religion.

i guess when people hear the word god come out from your lips, all of a sudden you become, in their eyes, some raving christian evangelist.

There's no awe there I suppose... I dont fear gods wrath! i dont expect him to pick me up by my foot and sling me into some burning fire pit.
It's hard to explain. It's like the respect I gave to teachers who befriended me.

Perhaps its just a comfort thing. Perhaps I am making it up. Perhaps when we die, its just black. Nothing.
But in my heart, that cant be possible.

I enjoy my relationship with god. :D
This is something they cant teach in a church. Something that cant be taught at all. I believe Marie lives on even though I denied her physical form for now. I believe she will be born again if she chooses. Therefor there is no alternative but to believe that someone is holding her now when I can't.

Last one, just for fun

You Are Not a Gold Digger

You go out of your way to take care of everything in your life. Including money - which you've got plenty of, thank you very much. And you have no intentions of being a trophy girlfriend for some bald guy. Just make sure that hottie you met isn't scheming to be your boy toy! As a successful woman like you knows, gold digging goes both ways these days.

Yeah baby o.o

I really should stop taking these quizs :s

Your Gemstone is Orange Saphire

Courageous, optimistic, and successful. Your confidence helps you handle the ups and downs of life

just for fun, i did this one (JUST FOR FUN MANMAN, I DONT SUSPECT YOU IN THE LEAST :P JUST TESTING OUT HOW ACCURATE THESE THINGS ARE)

Doesn't Look Like Cheating, But Be Careful

Chances are greater than not that your guy's not cheating... But there's always the possibility that he's a pro at covering things up The best thing you can do for now is listen to your intuition If it seems like he's cheating, he probably is... unless you suspect every guy you date

You Are Aphrodite!

A total shining star with a ton of admirers And no wonder: you live life to the fullest! When things get bad, you can easily take off to a happier place But occasionally, you need to deal with problems head on

Yay, favourite goddess *worships*